It's going to have to be a story change a week before I start NaNoWriMo just because I am that kind of insanely spontaneous kind of person that people sometimes hate because the changes have to work around them.
I think that the little fact about writing that I had lost in translation is that it's not suppose to be this big money-making machine full of generic thoughts and feelings. And it's not something that is suppose to replace everything that I don't have in life. It stands lone, glorious, fierce and a little iconic like the Lady Lib.
I don't have to be an amazingly famous writer with twenty houses, five hundred cars, and sixty dogs or dog fur coats or whatever. I write because I love words and what I have to say. I cannot stop the flow from coming out. I write because every time I do I find out more about myself and discover this person who isn't afraid to voice her opinions and let herself be judged by that alone instead of all the clichés of the exterior. I journey with characters instead of watching them. I'm don't have to look for all the right plots and the right words and sayings in someone else's perspective when I have so much of my own.
I have to lose something for the story to matter. By telling it, I have to be losing something, I have to be vulnerable in some way and allow the changes that comes with putting myself on the in that place take it's course.
So yeah, story change as of a few days ago but confirmed now.